Are we getting back together now ?

....I think we have never split up.

That's the sweetest thing you ever said .


-- 發送自我的 iPhone

Blogger 's test of its rusty skill

2014 Feb 4th

to help me established/ restore  my identity in a new era, i decided to keep this blog documented my days since now.  there should be elements including

1. my thoughts
2. my photoes.
3. my point of view
4. my blog.
5. extra discovery, observation.


20 幾歲的我　充滿了冒險精神　到處旅行　住了幾個不同的城市　最有趣的經理　
30幾歲的我　對於未來卻感覺趨於保守　感覺做了許多事情　有了許多經歷　但卻又沒有一種建立起自己王國的感覺　

還有幾場旅行沒有進行　



到底這10年　能不能再來一場華麗的冒險呢　玩出不同風格, 　活出生活的姿態. ３０歲的腦　多了現實　卻也多了穩重　　華麗的冒險　或許會是經過加工改造的　

我也不知道　但是加油～　３０歲的時光一樣要活得　精彩！！　加油

2014

 Now as i started to step into the early 30ies, i had realized  my awsome day of my 20ies isnt coming back !   yet with these established credit and the 2 years severe training in headhunting ( dog eat dog world ) and risk control management in the complete out of control world,


my high light of events in 20ies as i did a sammery on the day i found my wretch blog were completely deleted on the internet,  honestly ,i felt betrayed by  technology the day i found it. i should post it since 2004 wow. exactly 10 years from my exchange student life.  

i have 3 post that i wanted to trace back ,  1 is aobut passing boarder 2nd is about the relationship part of me and my experience in dating scorpio guy. 3rd is a travel entry on my anniversary date to Sanya Island.


honestly. i missed the time dating a special guy, why i missedthe time , it was becasue the style is completely idealistic and extravegant, and i dont know if i would ever be dating like that, judging by my recent status on relatioship which i strive to be stable and building a future, uhm i dont think so. perhaps it would be my golden year of dating?  thats kind of sad, i have to rethink about it, perhaps adjust and reprogram myself a bit.

by the way, like F said i should spend sometime back up this one in case any tragedy happened like last one.  oh my god. cant imagine, i guess i can still patch peices of my life back by consolidating my data and admend my online identity!

Gogogo fighting spirit Chloris !

A day to remember 2012 08 30

After 1 day from half of a year as a headhunter, 5 days from my birthday, today is a day to remember , I had closed two cases and sign in one client. After the tough days, trainings, all the sweat ,drained brain cells, tears , and self doubting from surviving, I had officially become a headhunter. Good job Chloris keep it up!



-- sent from iPhone

The Art of Taking and Receiving – Bribery in Chinese Culture

Scenario 1


‘’ I need a camera for a friend’s daughter’s birthday gift, may you get me one? ” The regional sales manager receive a text message right after the deal was done. She gave me a smile and we texted back ‘’ Ok. “
We’ll assume the camera is of course for himself, but to save the superficial thank you etc. awkward embarrassment, that’s just say, save your breath, hold your peace and take it, Therefore We watched in the car , and had our driver delivered the camera to him. No fuss, no hustle, drop to the hand and goodbye.


Scenerio 2.

We talked about how one of our competitor overwhelmingly owned the crowned of the top 1 regional govement highlighted sponsor list.
To receive the whole entire government official frequently from airport pick up , dinner, karaoke drink blue label, post karaoke (usually each of them bring a plus one to hotel), then breakfast .. quite often at least 5 times each month.

Usually at the dinner table, there would be a thick envelope placed at each seat, no words need to said, each guest knows how to take care of the envelope ( take and seal the lips) if words had been spoken the answer would be as such , there are some define tea in the bag, please enjoy. Yeah , Aint any leaf in the bag, but a lot of paper money bills with heads and eyes of the President Mao.



Scenario 3 .

A female friend of my friend was chased after a civil servant who works in domestic real estate department, the guy, of course owns a house, and an extra resort house under family name. He say he had three cars , one he drove, the other two was gifts, one stays in the not dare to drive out because its too expensive, the other was a less expensive version in rectification of the last gift.



Thanks & Regards

Chloris



-- sent from iPhone

位置:达道路,广州,中国

There Aren’t Just Monkeys In the Circus –Chimelong International Circus

As I probably mentioned ?? my family visit me from Taiwan for a week. Today , I took them to Chimelong (長隆), a well-known theme park resort located in Panyu ,Gaungzhou. Besides its teenage suitable water park, and scary roller coasterly rides, and the mooing noisy, lively ( stingky ) wild safari park, there is this nice exclusive family friendly part in park for all ages- the Famous Chimelong International circus.

I have heard people besides local speaking about this Circus Show, especially some Hong Kong, and Macau locals talked about it, and had especially mentioned many HK/Macau people travel to see the performance. What amazed me is, in China, this land of relatively low consuming ability in general, the ticket price is RMB 250 ( here a beer in can is RMB 3.5, and bowl of good noodle is RMB28 ), very expensive, if luckily you get best discounted ticket, price is RMB200 still. What sort of show is this, why there are so much a big deal, how dare they offer this high price. After I watched the performance this is my comment … Oh My God, it worth every single penny!




Don’t forget, China is a land with many gymnasts (recall Olympic please…) and by international circus, they attracts international good looking and well –trained gymnasts!



The stage effect is also quite poetic, magic forest. Land of the elves landing and perform in the air, Egyptian Queen of the Ferro leading the wild trained animal and Brazilian zamba carnival dance, then near the end, they performed a water diving show (gymnasts im very sure ) and had one audience joined them, the young man being safely tricked and dived into water from 3rd F height. That’s just brilliant, (yeah alright I wished they chose me as well )


Thanks & Regards

Chloris


-- sent from iPhone

位置:兴泰路,广州,中国

Jogger Roger

A few nights ago , I ran about 8 km , 8000 m during a late night jogging session from PM 11:30 - AM 1:30 , not by myself , with the jogger Roger , who is a very strict and serious looking jogger. I believe if it was not his self -discipline and prep 10 km might not be a hard task for a marathon runner like Roger , in international standard it only counts 1/2 of a half round , however it's enough ( a bit too much ) for a beginner like me.

it was first time I get to feel this part of city I live on foot ,

According to google map , our route was 9.8 km , we ran on a huge shape of a square starting from my house pass two long bridge ( the one with cars , the high way type) , and three more tiny bridges( the pedestrian type) , I had once read a sign nearby in my house explain why the city I live was called City Bridge since Ming dynasty ,

Also this is my first time in life to meet a semi professional jogger , now I said I will try to feature the people I had met in china , and of quite a few people I know , I will describe Roger as a " jogger who can run and giving an about 1 hr lecture at the same time in military style" means no joking sound ,no stopping , and no complaints

While I was far off catching up on my own breath , he carried on his well -structured lesson from scientifically healthy diet , biologically speaking of relations how our brain was cheated by our stomach by conveying mis info ( sometimes ur stomach is not empty but when it digest to certain degree it created alarm needs Food however the left over food stays there and accumulate fat etc ， then it comes to goal setting ( seperated the whole stage into sessional goals so u won't feel frustrated ) he stopped once get me a bottle of water , and of the cheering up and pressure I finally finished the route .

Roger rated me as out of his expectation strike r120points out of 100 points , i smile and take the compliment while all I think is yes I complete proud of me and good didn't bring money for going home by taxi

Chloris
-- sent from iPhone

位置:广场西路,广州,中国

An interesting encounter with Kid J

There are lots of thing I wanna blog about , mainly like a personal online dairy entry some records of the passing daily trivia.

Since the time I've been living in china I had got to know a lot of Chinese local friends and one day I will do a personnel feature of them one by one , that's the only right thing to do because they deserves to be kept on my record while came across to each other's life .


I met this new friend , J Kid ,on a very awkward situation , and I've got to say this kid was kind of like a last stroll to ease my panic attack although he didn't know at the moment .

It was at Lohu custom ,on the way back from a weekend to HK, while I was stuck in the floating stream with "Chinese" people now I don't know if you ever pass china to HK custom on a summer vacation weekend , the crowd of people is like one endless floating stream you can't see what's ahead of you and certainly there is no way of going back(how ?) , the worst part was when stream got jammed you suddenly realize you were stuck with this really unpleasant situation and started to be horrified and freaked out , yeah unfortunately ,it was exactly the situation I was in ,at Sunday 8 pm , I ,Chloris, a relatively brave and clever girl can't handle this situation , and literarily going to faint. I look around and move from middle of crowd towards fence , Trying to get some balence . You know you can't faint here because nobody will care about who you are at custom you are only one of the little tiny ant here, (imagine over 30000 ppl here) it would took them a long time to figure out who I am and don't know who to contact as I travel alone with tw ID . The word Refugee come across my mind I think in the war time or the immigration trend the situation must be like this !

Just while I poke my neck out of fence to get a hold of situation (useless btw) I heard a young male voice " are you going to jump over ? It's gonna be the same . " I "haha " him and explain I just want to escape from all of this , we then started to chat hence , as partially i say to myself must make one connection if I really faint he might help me if he actually has a heart . I quickly scanned him. A bright blue shirt with authentic mark of 原子小金剛，iPhone user，cannon digital single lance camera , a luggage of Rimowa , for a moment I thought he was from HK with his fancy gigs . Not bad .

Turns out he was a fresh college graduate and had 1 week hk macou trip with his frds after ceremony but his frds all lost into crowd at the moment， J Kid and I walk through custom together (thank god) then he asked me one question " do you use what's app ?" now here is China , no body use this thing ,I'm kind of stunned，my eyes get brighten , yes I say ! (of course ) ok maybe in Chinese college it's popular but I can assure you this usually is me asking ppl around me to install in china but not asked by chinese so we quickly exchange account and parted . I can see he felt sorry in his eyes . As I gave him a weak smile goodbye , and he need to catch a long distance train .

Turns out J Kid is a super helpful friend !! He let me shared his VPN account later on , which is a paid service like a super super wall climbing program , unblocked the all website Facebook YouTube yahoo all forbidden sites , and opens up in a fast speed on IPhone , i had use many wall climbing program before it either useless or very slow and non of them can apply on to iPhone , So this blog is dedicated to him J Kid thank you sharing VPN and allow me to be able to blog here


This also again remind me one thing. Always be kind be good and be open minded give your chance to meet some new people . This is good way to learn new things


-- sent from iPhone

Idealism

About being idealistic...

recently i had encounter a issue that makes me reflect if one (me) is being idealistic.. sadly it was by deciding to determinate a relationship with a man which last about 5 months ....it was what..my fifth serious relationship on the record..

being picky seems to be a sign of thinking things are not perfect enough...seemingly.. one cant help being picky if he/she is always comparing the significant others with the idleal life partner image.

- lack of international perspectives visions..
- think inside the box..
- not classy enough..
- not intelletually smart enough to qualify..
- not able able to laugh or participate things / arts/ humor that happen around the enviroment.
-dont like to drive in the city...despite as a car owner..
- possibly buying a house in the city i dislike..

however as a positive perspective on pros side..

- steady income
-wants to get married
- reasnably handsome enough.
- has a rutine/ regular life style.
- likes to make schedule for things
- spending efforts to hang out with my folks

why cant a girl like me just settle with a guy like this.. ? what do i want? always want more than i can get ? not ... enough.. could be more...

sometimes things juts doesnt fit as much as you wants them to be into those places... why cant one compromise? why cant we just satisfy with each other.. and say ok thats it .. lets put it an end for the mate searching , you and i are a pair from now on..

why we are always so demending? who are we comparing to?

cause we deserves better. we are smart and simply better than settleing with this guy <-- see, idealistic.

I heard one saying before <---- we need very little, but we always want more.

i shall say we always want more, when we had bend over..lol ~ sounds 18+

seriously...am i being idealistic...? where is the balence? ? show me and tell me.

Yoga Class...

The thing is...

Is there a sort of exercise could makes you feel extremly relax

? Especially after you have bend and stretch to you personal extreme Yeah yoga class

只在乎曾經擁有 ?

從小 我在一個充滿愛的環境下長大 , 體會愛是個正面的能量 , 親情 , 友情, 愛情, 是多麼美好的事情, 或許偶爾會有強烈情緒反應 , 但說真的 , 從不知道 ''恨'' 的滋味是甚麼, 頂多經常朋友之間半戲謔地開開玩笑 'I hate you~'

感謝歐陽迪朗, 終於教會了我甚麼是恨 .
是的 , 我恨他. 那是一種萬念俱灰的感覺, 尤其是他的冷漠, 逃避, 不回應, 更讓人無法釋懷.
真不敢相信自己用心跟這樣的人交往過, 過去一切愛的深刻顯得好諷刺喔.

自以為是真愛　近一切力量去挽回，　
卻在試圖溝通的過程之中對他的逃避得到的遍體鱗傷,

千里迢迢來卻在大街上卻只能在旺角漫無目的遊蕩流淚 只因為他不肯面對.
還有他跟朋友在蘭桂坊PARTY到夜半, 完全無視於我隻身在街頭無處可去不聞不問。
若不知道我在香港就算了 , 那種心寒無法言喻.


過去一切的回憶只是惱人, 是誰說只在乎曾經擁有? 我連回憶都不可以要了.
對於現在的我, 首要任務就是 專心遺忘 . 好的壞的都得忘記.
否則這樣的恨意猶在遲早會讓自己生病 所以必須忘了你. 今後我會對人說我不認識你

對於我這顆多愁善感的心, 遺忘還真是一項艱鉅的任務 ,
但是沒辦法. 過去太沉重了所以好的壞的都得切除

你就像是 ''癌 ''

It's like the Cancer, if i dont remove those cancel cells,
I will die.

是的, 遺忘或許讓我失去了很多, 但過去的一切已死, 唯有這樣才能更勇敢, 還原我乾淨的靈.


別離是好的, 當下是美好的，未來才是美麗的。　

沒有氣力了 ~ 又掉進那個沼澤裡~
那個充滿恨意 及無力感的沼澤~

怎麼辦~ 現在工作到一半 好想就take the day off. 衝出去大哭, 離開事故現場
可惜旅行對我來說 ~已不是出口 ~ 再也無法給予興喜的感覺
想著要逃~ 又有甚麼地方是適合一顆下沉的心?

羅馬吧 灰色的石頭, 冷酷生硬的 就像你 .

西班牙吧 陽光普照 ~ 卻無法雀躍

只想拿杯熱可可 蜷在沙發上 看 一場好電影 發呆..

那天靚突然打了電話給我 告訴我一番 成事在天的道理 盡了力 , 只能聽天命 .

好像到了適婚年紀了 ~ 卻無法想像跟誰真的結了婚 只想傻傻的幻想跟你生了兩個小孩 一男一女~ 白的可愛 ~ 黑的倔強 ~ 我想所以無法成就的愛情 都是美麗的悲劇吧 ~ 不是悲觀 只是悵然 ..

連哭 都顯得費力.

怎麼了 我又來了

When the moment pops up.. cant stop hating you.

[下午 01:55:16] Chloris: 我很難原諒你
[下午 01:55:20] Chloris: 因為你辜負我們的愛
[下午 02:09:22] Chloris: im struggling on the hatred towards you every fcking@# single day .
[下午 02:09:40] Chloris: why you ever being such of a person who gave up ?
[下午 02:09:42] Chloris: and quit?
[下午 02:25:54] Chloris: 你在我的心中 就是那個辜負愛情的人
[下午 02:26:18] Chloris: 我們以前所有一起經歷的 一起共同數算的
[下午 02:26:38] Chloris: 在你心中就是這麼容易 過一天忘一天
[下午 02:26:51] Chloris: 一起去的地方
[下午 02:26:59] Chloris: 一起過的日子
[下午 02:27:01] Chloris: 好像你
[下午 02:27:08] Chloris: 也不在懷念
[下午 02:27:15] Chloris: 所以你是誰?
[下午 02:28:09] Chloris: 曾經說好要一起走下去
[下午 02:28:14] Chloris: 的你　就走了　
[下午 02:28:19] Chloris: 不是辜負是甚麼？
[下午 02:28:25] Chloris: 還有你說的那些心結
[下午 02:28:27] Chloris: 根本
[下午 02:28:35] Chloris: 就是可以慢慢談 慢慢去化開的
[下午 02:28:38] Chloris: 在愛情裡
[下午 02:28:41] Chloris: 誰沒有犯錯
[下午 02:28:50] Chloris: 你不也把我孤單的丟在大街上?
[下午 02:29:00] Chloris: 你不也讓人活在苦痛之中？
[下午 02:29:02] Chloris: 我犯錯
[下午 02:29:05] Chloris: 你就沒有錯
[下午 02:29:16] Chloris: 愛情之中　沒有一定誰是誰的罪人
[下午 02:29:22] Chloris: 可是有包容　有悔改　..
[下午 02:29:29] Chloris: 有體諒　
[下午 02:29:49] Chloris: 不是嗎？

it was you, who are being the quitter, it was you whom took off. it was you whom betrayed our commitment, it was you who let go.

It was you. i hate you so bad...

I hate you.

* 幸福 * ~ Content.

~ 發現自己 快樂很多


快樂 原來是不需要等待人家來供給 不需要奢求對方跟你一起開始, 一起分享 ，而是透過生活去感受，或者自己創造的。　


幸福是一種狀態，不是追求，現在的我，開始滿足生活中的點滴　～　並且珍惜能夠一起分享的人。　　

Roy 隨便丟的幾個愚蠢笑話　就讓我大笑很久,　那一刻就是幸福。

偶爾喝掛了還可以有朋友接我回家，也是幸福，
　
晚上回家，一開門媽媽熱一鍋雞湯，看電視的爸爸起身為我榨杯鮮果汁，我永遠是他們的公主，這是我熟悉的幸福。

看場電影，還是容易為劇情牽動，提醒我不管發生甚麼事還是有顆善感，易動容的純真, 這也是幸福。
　　　
賴皮走不動了懶得回家，睡在朋友家也是一種幸福。

可以被追求，記得自己也是還有魅力，也是一種幸福。:P 　

真的無聊了找些東西學學，沉浸在學習認識新朋友的成就感中，也是種幸福吧。

比起之前曾經以為擁有了, 卻總是孤單等待結果的那種空虛　～　好似踏實多了。

這樣的幸福是確切且溫暖的。　

終於懂了，幸福不是寂寞的等待，而是透過當下的生活慢慢體驗，一個讓你感到幸福的人是能夠與你一起創造，一起分享，一起共同期待。

不要追求了吧，就讓自己快樂就好，但要感受幸福，用心去慢慢感受，細細品嘗，現在的我終於跨出那一步，敞開心胸，用心體會。

Relationship Modes.

As that issues of relationship pop up recently in discussion, i found that there are indeed several different modes which is not way beyond my imigination, but way over my expetation.

- This week , I met X @ Cafe , A friend's friend. A western originated Taiwnese Resident who was into a thing, call 'open relationship.'

how open is that , when he is dating someone , his gf can still playaround, and getting involved with others (for f#)(*$) , as long as his gf is good to him mentally and physically satify him, plus no string attached to other guy. It's not news i know, but just he seemed far more confident into what he is beliveing in that i found myself couldnt really argue with him, he said, kid , obviously your 'one and only' theory had fail this time remebered? you dated someone who is not committed enough to you, so might as well enjoy and play alone the way....

' Fine, hold on... no judgments ' I said , after his long blablabla.. X finally zipped when i lift up my both hands .


Then later on Mr. A told me when help to trouble shooting my phone.... He looked up and said.

' ....or you can marry one of your friends ... like my co-worker did, they were happily married, and just start dating now after marriage..." Then there is this awkward pause for 10 seconds..

'.......What ...stop looking at me ! '

'Fine.. im just joking around. i already dated my gf for 3 years.. you know that. '

Anyways, there are different ways to stay happily together. methods / approaches in to acheive the a stautus of a happy relationship.

C'est la Vie. (Do i even spell right) I mean, as you like.

Heart-Breaking. Delete

Today is the saddest day of the year. 2010 12. 31.

knowing that I must delete you from my life..

knowing that i must forget about you...

because we will never be together...

knowing that you hated me to be around.

knowing that we had screw up .

昨日 我還允許自己耽溺在我們曾經擁有的美好回憶裡

那美好的畫面~ 你說你想我住香港多一點

說我愛都市生活 喜歡買東西又愛熱鬧,

其實我也告訴朋友 我去香港好一點, 男生在自己熟悉的地方總是多些資源,

況且估你在台灣住一輩子 恐怕也是住不慣的 , 頂多像你說的 老了 存了錢 回台灣開民宿.

想著我們曾經拿著地鐵圖 研究以後住哪裡好 ~ 沙田嗎 其實也可以接受, 你說.

This and that... need to delete,

need to erase the vision,

need to say goodbye to you , the one i had really been seriously consider as life partner.

you said that we will never be together , so i need to delete you from my life,

It hurts so much, cant breath ...

♥ Love ♥

This world is supposed to be full of Love~ Like the world i had always know ♥♥

Today had joined the secret proposal party of Maggie's , my dear friend. it was a day full of love.

Looking at her, and the man whom loved her so much, im really happy for them. This time, no judgements, no doubts.. my dear friedn, all the best regards.


♥♥♥ I love you , Chloris ~ dont be sad, if you had been treated wrong , be strong, and heal back, you will find a suitable man for you and him love each other and live happily sweet for a long long long life time. ♥♥♥


Only when i was quiet, i realized how much my heart is broken , and how much i am hur . Love is a puzzle, there is no right or wrong, but the sound of heart breaks is crispy clear..


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Go on~ Chloris dont look back, just let go.

Patience, do not go get love , love will finds you~

♥♥♥♥ Big hug to you Chloris ~ xoxo ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Woman.

Ms. T

my friend, with repects, raised her two kids by her own, support her own family, bought a house on her own which would have been much easier if she had someone to share with.

i watched her in a dark alley from her back, playing cellphone games, foucused and laughing like a kid.

me and her daughter walk arm in arm behind..in the chilly winter night,

its a full moon night, where the light of stars and moon is dime.. but the street lambs are bright.

T , i saw him your ex, with his new gf, he regonized me in a wedding occaasion, waving at me, like the first time we met , you and me and him went out for the midnight massage and snack with my Australian frnd.. white t-shirt, he wore. Little had i knew, the woman i had a cheerful chat ealier was the new girl .

I would kept this little secret to myself, cause i had seen you grown so well :D

Do not forget.

Do not look back .

他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了
他不愛妳了

Remeber this.

So just leave .